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You're definitely not alone. I think a LOT of dancers meet the criteria for ADHD. If anyone doubts this, pick up a copy of the book Driven to Distraction by Ed Hallowell. Read the List of 100 Questions, if nothing else.
I was formally diagnosed at the age of 30. Overall, I think the diagnosis has been a positive thing for me, though it certainly hasn't solved all my problems. To be honest, I sometimes think that what they call ADHD is really more of a personality type than a "disorder", but whatever it is, I fit the profile. I do sometimes take Adderall, and it helps with certain things, but it can be tricky, especially for anyone who has a history of serious substance abuse (I don't know if you do or not...)
You sound pretty similar to me in a lot of ways: I have also been attracted to sociopaths, I was the space cadet through grade school, I have always been drawn to high-stimulus pursuits (including stripping...) I think you're right to consider ADHD. You might want to seek a formal diagnosis.
My advice: Read Driven to Distraction. It's a very good introduction. Then read more if you're still interested. Consider a formal diagnosis, and do some online research to find psychologists and psychiatrists in your area who are knowledgeable about ADHD. If you DO get a diagnosis, my advice is to hold off on trying any meds until you've had some time to think about everything. One good thing about a diagnosis is that if you're considering going back to school, you can get accomodations (extra time on tests, or help with note-taking, for instance, depending on what you need. I don't use any of these, but it's nice to know that I could...)
I hope this is helpful. Feel free to PM me if you have any other questions
-Nic
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