I have always come here for a feeling of support.
I don't know, I feel like maybe if I just type here what has been going on...you guys could give an opinion.
My friends don't know alot about this biz. They think I go...take off my chlothes have a few free drinks, and party. They don't understand what goes on before and after and during....
I'm a little confused. I haven't made anything to be proud of but I haven't been brave enough to work a weekend yet. I came into this not knowing how to dance or carry myself. Wow, you guys would have gotten a laugh to see me walk in these shoes.
Today I almost quit. And I talked myself out of it.
A few nights ago I got drunk at an after party at the club I work in. A big no no, and something I had been warned against attending.
I practiced with the pole, one good thing...I was told I was doing a great job..I brusied 2 ribs(during the party)
Haven't gone back since.
I also think that one of the workers there might be a potential stalker. No proof of that yet, and no story, just....a womans...sense. Yanno?
Another thing, has anyone had to deal with their male friends finding out?
I haveI went to a party a few nights back and apparently I was the talk of the town. (small town) It's hard.
It's hard when these men come in....thinking they know me...
It's hard when these people think they have saw me drunk and wanna talk about what I do...
I'ts hard when this one man....seems to think he owns me.
I do think I will not drink anymore before/during/or after I work.
I'm giving it the weekend.
I just hope it......
I dunno...works?



(during the party)
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