I'm having some serious issues with my sexuality lately......okay, well I've always had issues with it, but whereas I used to think of it as something interesting to ponder, now I'm just totally confused and and a little upset about it.
A little background info:
The majority of my sexual experinces have been with men. I've only messed around a little with other girls; I've never actually had sex with another girl. Very few men have ever really turned me on. (When I say that I mean "real life" guys. I mean there's lots of guys on TV and in movies that turn me on. Antonio Banderas, Brad Pitt, Juaquin Pheonix.....and for some odd reason I really dig John Stewart from the Daily Show on Comedy Central......but when it comes to guys I actually meet in real life......well, they just don't get me hot.) But other girls really DO turn me on. They always have. I can remember trying to look up the other girls' skirts when I was in elementary school.![]()
I used to enjoy my sexual experiences with guys. I've never had an orgasm from having sex with a guy(so far it's just me and my vibrator doing the big O), but I always had a good enough time trying.
Lately though I'm really not enjoying sex with men. I don't even enjoy thinking about it. I find the idea of a penis about as sexy as the speculum at my gyno's office. And I find myself thinking more and more about having sex with other girls.
Now I know that no one here at SW can definitively tell me whether or not I'm gay. It's something I'm gonna have to figure out on my own. But what I'd really like to know is if there are any lesbians on this board and if so, how did you know you were gay? Was it something you just knew all of your life? Was it something you struggled with for awhile before finally allowing yourself to consider it? If it was something you weren't sure about or struggled with, was there anything that really helped you make up your mind or figure it out or come to peace with it?
Thanks in advance to anyone who has advice for me on this subject. I had thought about putting this in the Ladies Only section, but I changed my mind because I really wouldn't mind hearing from anyone here; guys who know someone in this situation, bi-sexual, gay, straight, women/guys, whoever. I welcome advice or help from anyone. I'm so confused and I don't know what to feel right now.




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