Hey, I want to do this, but I am really nervous. Heres why.
1. I'm really really REALLY shy. It's hard for me to go up to people and talk. I talk alot with friends, but if I don't know someone, well or not, it's really hard for me to go up to them and talk. I guess in a way I fear rejectment, because the person can choose to go away and not talk bad, and I fear that.
2. I don't have the best body. I am confident in it enough to be able to take pictures for my guy, and make love in the light, and I've danced for him, but with lots of various random eyes on me? That is a little scary. My figure is okay, but I have a lot of stretchmarks and scars on my butt and thighs, and I have small boobs.
3. Normally I am a very causal girl, I never wear makeup or anything. In fact I don't remember the last time I wore makeup. So I'm nervous that I don't know how to put on makeup right. And also, I don't even own a pair of heels. The tallest heel I've worn EVER is an inch, so I don't know how I can walk in five inch heels.
4. Also, I'm afraid because of the future. If I get a "normal" job afterwards, or do anything afterwards, would this be a "black hole" in my past? I'd like to do it - it seems like it pays well, but if it'll affect my future, it wouldn't be worth it. [As for future, I want to go to business school, work in a company, eventually having my own business hopefully]
5. I guess I'm also scared of people I know coming in and seeing me.
I'm 21 and I live in Austin, if you have any specific tips concerning those.


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