My Mon, who is 79, 80 in August, has been fighting ovarian cancer for 2 1/2 years now and she's put up one hell of a fight. But back in April she started to decline rapidly. She's in the hospital now with perhaps maybe 2 months left. I cry every day. I worry about getting my 8 year old son through this because he's very close to his "Grammy". It's so hard watching her fade, seeing the sparkle in her beautiful blue eyes getting dim. I'm so scared. I have 3 older sisters who are 16, 13 and 11 years older than me. They always had eachother, all I had was my Mom. Don't get me wrong, I'm close to my sisters, now, But when I was growing up they were already out of the house starting their own lives. Back when my mother was first diagonsed (sp) I realized that she might not make my sons first holy communion, so I started to pray. I prayed to God to let her make it to my sons communion and then he could take her. Well, right after my sons communion on April 9th she started to slip. I guess God heard me. My father isn't much better off, he has lung cancer and he's home alone while she's in the hospital. They've been married 58 years and she's done everything for him. For christ sake, she even would lay out his clothes for him. I don't know whats going to become of him when she's gone. My gut tells me he'll prolly follow close behind her. I just wish someone would come along and put their arms around me, hold me and tell me everything is going to be alright.
Take care of your ovaries ladies. We didn't catch my moms cancer until it was too late. She was already stage 4. I've learned that ovarian cancer whispers, so you have to really listen. My mom notice that her tummy was getting a little bigger. So like all of us women, she started watching her weight. She never complained about any other symptoms but my mom is very stoic (sp) and before we knew it she looked like a pregnant 77 year old! What I've started doing (since my risk for ovarian cancer is much greater now) on my OB/GYN recommendation along with my annual exams with with her is to get a pelvic ultra sound 6 months after my exam with her. This is so an entire year won't go by befor something is picked up. So every 6 months I've got someone checking my ovaires one way or another. I also have my CA-125 checked.
Thanks for letting me cry on your shoulders. One thing I've noticed about this site is that everyone is so supportive of eachother, posting this thread was theraputic in a way.
Remember - take care of your selves. Our health is in our hands and we have to be proactive about it.



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southstbabe, if you ever need a virtual hug or to talk, let me know ok?








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