Hi everyone Im kinda embarrased to be writing this but Im so unhappy I need to get it out but please dont be too harsh, constructive criticism only! Basically theres a girl at work who I am getting a really negative obsession with. When I came in a couple of years ago as a custy she gave me my first lapdance and Im ashamed to say I kinda fell in love, not in the literal sense obviously but she certaintly makes every custy feel special. anyway iv now started work at the same club so I see her most nights and my awe of her is turning into hate and im so angry at myself. I find myself watching her and wanting to harm myself for not being as utterly beautiful as her. I know its weird and wrong of me but I cant help it and she really makes me upset. she has a constant smug look (i would too if i was her) and when i see her i actually feel physically ill and often tearful. Believe me I know how crazy this sounds but i hate her for being so wonderful and hate me for not being her and for being such a bitch.



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