I had my first day on the job last Friday. When I started, I was not expecting so much contact. My manager told me "no air dances" so, alright, no problem. I spent the whole day in a daze just working my butt off. I came home with a fat wad of cash to comfort me, but I couldn't sleep. The next day I had off, it was terrible. At times I felt guilty and at others I didn't. However, everywhere I went, I was scared that someone would recognize me. All the men walking around looked liked guys I had danced for. So, I freaked out and quit. I am so scared of someone finding out that I strip. On one hand, I try and tell myself that it's not a big deal. It's nothing, it means nothing. On the other hand, the movements are very intimate and mean everything to my partner and I. I feel like I don't know up from down right now. Mentally, I am a tough gal. I know I could do this and rock at it, however my hearts just not in it. Any advice? Did anyone go through something similar?



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