I gotta start living again. I'm tired of this shit! I'm having issues with walls and trust. I gotta let it go again and be who I am.





I gotta start living again. I'm tired of this shit! I'm having issues with walls and trust. I gotta let it go again and be who I am.
I am the same way. Eleven years will get you there. (for me) and it's not just dancing...I think some life experiences have given me the walls and reasons to have issues trusting people....
I think sometimes my bf is baffled by my behaviors... poor guy
Don't knock yourselves. I feel the same way and for good reasons. There is a time and season for everything.
girl...i know how you feel. been there, done that, still going thru it.
![]()
why do some people still have to fight to get the same opportunities that are given to others?
reclusiveness...is a good thing.
the greatest revenge in the world...is success.



Don't mind me. I'm just waiting for a cure for arthritis.
My latest conspiracy theory: I am convinced that Dick Cheney is, in reality, Elmer Fudd.





ET,
If you're ready to start living again then just start doing it ! You know I have been going through some heavy shit lately too and most of it has been what I like to call self inflicted.
Meaning I am thinking way to much about things people have done to me in the past, etc.
I've finally decided to say fuck it and really start living my life again ! I can't allow people who hurt me in the past to have power over me by constantly dwelling on the pains from the past. At the end of the day its really just not that fucking serious and the only one who is losing out on life is me !
My new love...is me !
Even the greatest authority does not, ultimately, know you as you know yourself.
Jhuka
When someone shows you who they are, believe them.
Maya Angelou





Learn from yourself. Make good choices for yourself. Never compromise yourself for anything. Try and breathe some air too.,..that helps.
you live like an ivy vine
you can only survive by clinging onto trees
that's your flaw
put down some roots so you can stand on your own
-Kenpachi
True stories.
I'm walking down the street, and I see a quadriplegic being rolled around in a wheelchair by a caretaker. The quad can't talk, and his head rolls around as his wheelchair bumps.
I visit a friend who's lived longer than his cancer was supposed to let him. But he's pretty skinny, it hurts him to move much, and his complexion is pasty. He doesn't have long to go.
I go to a Third World country and see families living in small rooms in buildings that are falling down around them. They work, they get paid, but it's not nearly enough. I drive through their neighborhood in an air-conditioned car.
I feel bad for anyone who feels bad, anyone who struggles with the emotions that hinder them, but when it comes down to it, we don't have problems. I don't have problems. I'll show you people with problems. We're breathing, we can walk and wave our arms, we live in warm places, we have freedom of movement. We got it good. At least for this year, even though I do complain from time to time, I realize that I really don't have a right to.
Been there, done that.. learned that my trust issues weren't really anything I did to make them.. spent some time alone, figured my shit out.. opened up a bit.. you have to sometime.. can't stay lonely and bitter forever.
[/URL]
[/URL]
Yeah I was going to say earlier that there isn't a shit bit of anything we can really do to change any past angst. AND Jay Zeno had some valid points to make.
Sometimes though, it's OK to wallow in some of it as long as you pull out and become a stronger person afterwards. Learn from experiences and make changes if you need to.
Book recommendation: "Positive Energy" by Dr. Judith Orloff. Tips on how to sort through people in your life, and empower yourself.
I wholeheartedly agree with Jay Zeno. You won't appreciate all that you have until you see little dirty starving kids begging for food or hear war zone stories by people who lived through literal hell on earth. "I felt sorry for myself for not having shoes, until I met a man who had no feet."
I have had a rough time this year with trust and self-image. The most painful thing was realizing I was an easy mark for manipulative people because I was raised around two mentally ill, evil people. I look back on all the verbal abuse and neglect and think, Gawd, I'm lucky to be sane! That's the key. See your luck where it is, think of yourself as fortunate. Harness the wrongs that were done to you to strengthen your resolve that you will NOT be like the people you hate, the people who hurt you. "To love is to heal, to hurt is to steal." Don't take from others. Cut the bad out of your life and use your anger to fuel good deeds- you reap what you sow.
absolutely key...be who you are... when any of us get very far away from that, we're almost asking specifically, "may I have a personal disaster/catastrophe please? make that with lots of teeth gnashing and tears if you would...please hold any joy whatsoever." get back...get back...get back to where you once belonged...get back jojo...get back loretta...! Hang in there...Originally Posted by erotictonic
Bookmarks