I am soooo tired of being in a relationship, and I've only been with him since December! I'm not tired of him, just of the whole relationship thing. Life is difficult enough without adding someone else's (and their child's) happiness into it. I have myself, and my daughter and that seems so overwhelming already. (I'm venting here in case anyone couldn't tell yet) I quit my job dancing and have been doing my best to adjust to life (very well if I say so myself) and I just feel that I would be happier on my own! In a sense, it would be so much harder because I would have to go back to dancing and do the whole single mom thing while going to school to better myself and whatnot. I just want to do what I want to do, when I want to do it!!!!! Pretty selfish in a way. Big sigh! Ah, life.
Ok, so I decided that since I am not dancing, then I will go get a job waitressing at a club instead. I don't have the job yet, but I want it because of the good tips and etc. I trully don't want to work 40 hour weeks to make what I made in 10 hours before!!! Or less! It makes me want to puke. So now I'm not supposed to be in the "environment" at all! Ok, I'm making him sound horrid when he's not. He's actually awesome, but I want to do things MY way! Hmmm what to do? I'll figure it out tomorrow, I guess. Good night all! Good luck to me!!![]()



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