So I'm in Paris, and I want to dance here, but I was told more than once that it's not legal (since I'm an American), not having a work visa etc. etc.
But luck changed last night when i finally got asked to come back and audition at one of the clubs- tonight at 11pm. (everything starts and ends late here)
Anyway, I'm not a shy type, really, but not really being able to speak French, and taking the metro around and having this lurking feeling I'm going to disappear off the face of the earth and no one will notice (I've decided not to tell me French roommate- the sweet little junior high English teacher- what I'm up to) had me kind of meek.
The manager told me to bring "a dress" (?) - but looked to me like the girls were in the typical get-up... language barrier? And that I would be dancing three songs on stage. Haven't seen any of the other girls dance, so I don't know what the protocol is for this club. Floor work ok? Am I wasting my time being a girl who cannot flip herself upside-down and backwards around the pole? Dunno.
It's all much more formal than anything I was used to in L.A.
I keep getting this sick feeling that I'm in way over my head, here. One of the reasons I love dancing is that it makes me feel in control, makes me feel my own power. Not feeling power now. Just feeling scared.
Anyone ever felt "out of their element" in this way before? How do I minimize embarassing myself, with my lack of information?
I suppose I could just ASK questions. Sigh. Suppose it's better to be sneered at in a conversation than on a stage...
Help of any type greatly, greatly appreciated.


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