Hello all,
I'm new here and new to dancing. See, about 3 months ago I was a engineer. I started to get very depressed because of my job. traveling, being away from home and in a job I hated made me start to hate life. So I just walked out on my job. Im currently studing to get my personal trainning certification but I wanted to start making cash right now(since I have been jobless for 3 months) so, I just started stripping.
Im a male and I'm dancing in a predominately gay bar. I myself am striaght and I have a girlfriend I love very much. Before I quite my job as a engineer, she totally wanted me to leave my job and start stripping because she knew I would be a happier person. At first, I was going to dance at ladies (custys) only bar, but I decided to dance at a gay bar for 2 reasons: 1. from what I learned, gay men tip much better then ladies, and 2. Since im striaght, I knew my girlfriend would handle it much better. Now that I have started, I really get this felling she is a bit jealous. This is making me feel a bit guilty but I hope her feelings will subside in a month or so when she sees there is nothing to worry about. Im dancing on men which does nothing for me and I dont want anyone but her. I have never cheated on her or would I ever because she is satisfying to me in every way. She is what I always desired and I love her with all my heart. She is only 21 and im 29, so maybe cause she is younger, that may play into it also.
I want to keep dancing because I really like to be in the spotlight and dancing is the only thing I can do where im good at it. I get a feeling of satisfaction and enjoyment out of this job choice. I made good $$ for not even trying and I could not get over the fact that people give me $20 to dance on them for 1 song. Also like I said, I needed a job that paid well to pay the bills, but im not ever going back to a day job. I currenlty have about $1900 a month in bills and dancing will easily pay that for me.
So anyways, I think soon, the feelings of guilt will wear off and she will be more secure with what I do. I will add that she is a bartender and gets hit on all the time when she works, hell, with her nice fake boobs and skimpy outfits, I dont blame them. But I trust her and know she loves me, I think soon she'll see it the same.
This post is not really a question of any kind. I just felt like spilling my guts to some people that may have been in the same boat early in there career. I do feel better now. thanks for listening and if youd like to add a comment or 2, that would make me![]()


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