My ex-husband is back in town from a one year deployment in Japan.He showed up at my apartment today with Starbucks and a smile.We were just sitting around talking about old times and he was playing with the dogs while he was here.The conversation we were having was extremely smooth and pleasant and it reminded me of the old days of being married to each other.The thing is,I REALLY miss that.All the old feelings I have for him that I thought I buried,resurfaced and all I wanted to do was hug him and never let go.I am still so in love with him.I still want to be with him.The brief time he spent here at my place today,filled the void in my life for the duration of his visit.After he left,I felt empty again.He's about to move to North Carolina for his next duty station.What am I going to do?????I don't want to let him out of my life,just so I will kick myself 10,15,20 years down the road.I REALLY miss him.I am crying as I am typing this right now.



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