so i took a break from dancing in june b/c i felt i needed a break. i was dancing about a full year, starting out as superhustler, working all the time. but as the months went by $$$ was slow(i don't mean just a few nights, i know u gotta take the good with the bad but it was getting bad!), extras girls were fucking it up, and it just started to not be fun anymore. i found myself coming up with excuse after excuse to not go, or to leave when i got there. i've done a few bachelor parties since, and have no problem with it, so i don't think dancing itself was a reason. i've enjoyed the time off, but lately my finances are slowing up and i need money. also, a lot of my friends still dance and when we talk about it i find i miss dancing. i feel that i've had enough time off to start being superhustler again. i definitly miss the income and having a decent savings account. plus i'm in school all during the day so it's hard for me to find a decent paying job (and school is my #1 priority). i have decided to start working again as of tomorrow night, and have just been doing things to make sure i look my best when i do (exercise, make up hair and the sort) but i keep feeling this anxious feeling in my stomach, and i'm starting to actually feel nervous!! I don't know why b/c i wasn't this bad even when i first started!! i guess this is just a vent, and i was wondering if any of you ever felt this way and had some suggestions. i already know i'm going to do it cause i have to (tuition and car bills), but i just keep having those "what if's" in the back of my head. it sucks, cause i know i need confidence to make good money but i'm having trouble finding it and it sucks..... any comments would be much appreciated!!! thanks



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