I posted a thread previously about my bf who seemed extremely confused about whether he was ok with me stripping. For the most part he was telling me that he was fine with it because I need the money but he wouldnt be able to come see me dance which is understandable in a way. So yesterday, well wednesday I auditioned and I got the job!! So excited that I was able to get through it i called him to tell him the good news. At first he was fine with it, asking me questions like how'd it go, what did you wear and such. But then he starts asking me questions like how are you going to feel grinding on other guys erections, and what are the customer rules? are they allowed to touch you and grab your ass? I told him that during lap dancing, yes they can touch your breast lightly and your body but they cant touch your vagina. He was like oh I have another call. Ten minutes later he sends me a text that says "dont do it". I say dont do what? he says work at that club. Im like what the fuck? I thought you were fine with it. He says well after I really thought about hows those guys are going to be touching you grabing your ass and shit, I cant deal with that no fucking way.
A TOTAL CHANGE OF HEART WITHIN TEN MINUTES AFTER MONTHS OF ME ASKING IF HE WAS SURE THAT HE WOULD BE OKAY IF I EVER DID IT!!! He says well if you had told me that you were seriously going to audition I might have told you not to do it earlier. I DONOT understand this! I was so excited that finally I would be making some money and he shuts me down.
I really love him. We have been dating over a year and we have arguments and lots of disagreements on various situations occasionally. He can be thoughtful and sweet and he is very faithful but can sometimes be a real jerk.
I was supposed to go in to work the next day but I asked him do you seriously have a problem with this? He says yes I do, I really dont think I could date a stripper. So I asked you would break up with me over this. He says whether I will or not I dont want u to do it PERIOD.
So I called out my first night. I have no idea if that is exceptable and if I can go back. I really love my boyfriend but I really need this job. I dont want to do it because Im afraid of him leaving me because he cant handle it. Im desperate for serious cash though, its not life or death but theres no other way i can make so much in so little time. I need a car, to pay my rent, I have no health insurance, and past due bills. He gives me a little money here and there when he has it but he doesnt make much and its not enough.I dont know what to do....



I dont know what to do....

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