My man and I got into a huge fight tonight...Happy New Year, Im moving out. I will be staying here until my daughter goes back to Maui on Jan 6th then Im out.. I have 1 week to get first and last rent and FIND a place. I just filed Ch7 so good luck with my credit and no proof of income.
Argh... this is so frustrating but Im tired of pretending everything is great. Its so frustrating that hes so irresponsible. The worst - I had to leave work early last night because he got drunk at a friends place and getting ready to drive home... and the whole drive back he kept saying hes ok to drive... he was NOT. He does this all the time and I dont want to be around when he gets a DUI or worst. I try to tell him to NOT do it. How difficult is it to not drive after drinking?
He lives paycheck to paycheck and has no ambition to go anywhere in his job. No plans for a career. He smokes TONS of weed on top of that (i HATE the stuff). He HATES my job. One thing we fought about was that he said I LIKE my job. Umm ok... so its ok to dance if I hate it?![]()
I kept hoping he changed or that I could deal with everything but I cant. Every night when I come home I feel like shit because he looks at me differently since I went back to dancing f/t. I have no desire to have sex with him which makes me feel bad too. Shouldnt I WANT to have sex with my boyfriend?
These are the bad qualities... hes not all bad... he has great qualities too... just the bad outweighs the good. Its so sad because he tries... he really does. He loves me. He loves my daughter. I just dont love him.
When we broke up a year ago it should have stayed that way. Oh well, all I can do is move forward - leave him in the past for good. Should have listened to all those who said theres a reason we broke up the first time...


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