It was my first night. Im really exhausted. The balls of my feet are blue.
I came in , was told to fill something out / sign it and stupidly!! did. Only Then, I was told whats up (house fees,scheduling, persuasiveness etc). With all the cuts and tip outs, the money spent on clothes, etc, it doesnt seem worth it at ALL. Towards the end of the night (actuallly about 12) I totally felt like shit- I had cramps and felt 'fat' with bloat- and pissed because I just wanted to leave but I would have had to fork out 125.
The thing I do like is the attention, and to watch myself. I know/feel I am really sexy, sophisticated, and really rare-- the attention and talking turned me on. I was there from 7pm to 3am, and am supposed to be there for a 4pm to 8pm shift tomorrow. !! I had to commit to 4 nights a week to get a lower house fee (otherwise Id be paying out everynight and dancing for free)- its a lifestyle-- two of the most lucrative girls at the club are 19 and 20, ,both had BA when they were 18, were coked out, and eating diuretics and rx diet pills whenever they came into the d-room to change.
Oh jeez, I really like the girls, but I was the one lapdancing drunk boners, and feel jipped paying out to grown, sleazy men in suits.
Its 4am. Forgive me.



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