I am sorry if I am posting this in the wrong forum-let me know.

Anyhow I am having a hell of a time finding a bartending job right now! I get noses in the air at restaurants (why the hell are food service folk so damn snide!), disregarded at hotels (one guy blatently spoke to the hiring mgr in front of me not knowing I somewhat understood his spanish and his referal to me as "little white girl"), am too pretty (???assuming from the dirty looks), too punk, not punk enough for those too cool poseur a-holes, not preppy, not sporty enough (for sports bars-ugh, I hate sports!), too much make up or not enough!!-maybe I really am too ugly!
I have been told several times I'd be called back, but have to of yet. I even asked one guy if he was serious, cause my teacher said if they say they'll call you back- they won't! If they want you, they'll hire you on the spot. He promised he would-he never did!
I have never been so discouraged in my life!!! I feel like I am either dating a bunch of assholes or a goddamn actor getting turned down repeatedly for parts-except I don't have that ruthless confidence that is required. My bar school teacher was surprised to find out today that I still am unemployed, since I am "not the ugliest girl"-whatever that means.. I would LOVE, LOVE, LOVE to work in a SC. I have since a teen to loved to dance, wear inches of make-up, wigs, lingerie, heels, etc...and furthermore am a musician- but currently lack the confidence to dance right now cause this depression has caused this xtra 10lbs around the belly to continually exist. I actually carry it alright cause my ass and legs look great and you can always suck in the stomach, but it deters my confidence-which I know is everything.
I have rent and cc bills coming up and have never been so desparate! My only solice lately has been strippersweb...please help! Does anybody's club need a bartender..hell even a cocktail waitress right now? I'm in OC but am willing to travel to surrounding areas. Thanks! (sorry such a long rant!)