I havn't let on to my boyfriend about any of this.
A few weeks ago because of some bullshit ( another post, another day ) he got let go from his job because of me. it was a shity job but he was understandably mad at me, but still nice to me. He got over it fast, and with in a week a friend got him a really great job as a waiter. Because of school I stay at my moms all week, and spend weekends with him, but when i'm with him insted of us spending a little "us" time i get to hear stories of all the fun he's had over the week, including hanging out with female co workers ( not in a bad way, but still kinda pisses me off ), and stories of what he and his friend ( a guy that hates me and wants him to leave me ) have been doing. I'm all for having your own life, and i in no way try to control him or anything, or even ask what or where he's been or any of that kind of stuff, but I feel kind of bad about all this. I think it's worse because I recently cut out all the people in my life that are dramatic, or unhealthy for me, and I only have about 4 friends left, who I never hang out with. I hate feeling this way, and i'm trying to find new friends to hang out with so i can do my own thing during the week, and maybe have some stories to tell him, but nothing is working. You can't force having friends, but it seems to just happen to everyone around me. i don't want to lower my standerds and start hanging out with the unhealthy people again, but that's my only options if i can't find some new friends.



.... Yea I said it!!!
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