Oh wow, I used to love school, and now it just seems increasingly pointless. I've totally lost my drive. I have a paper due in 12 and half hours, and it's not even half way finished. The last paper for this class I did the same thing and somehow managed an A, but I doubt I'll pull that kinda luck twice. It's not that school is any harder, or that I find it less interesting, I just can't concentrate on it anymore. All motivation is lost. I feel like my degree will only lead to a Starbucks career anyway...(philosophy major, in third year).
Last week I kinda lost my mind a little and dropped down to two classes...I have no idea whether I am even going to register for next fall, or if I should take a year off? I feel like this degree is a waste of time...and I'm making sooo much money these days at work, I feel like maybe my time would be better spent working/ traveling...
I'm only 20, so maybe this is just immaturity...and I've been so godawful sick for almost a year now. My guts literally bleed during finals. My doctor said I need a better coping method for school stress. Well, I've managed to control it slightly, but it's just one more thing I'm sick of dealing with.
Yeah yeah I know, whine whine whine. Sorry. My bartender buddy at work said "you were the smart one, the one actually in school, the one who didn't drink- and now you're becoming a stripper".
My marks haven't dropped- yet. I still have a 9.0 Canadian GPA (outta ten- it's pretty good). But I think I want to switch programs...except I don't what else interests me...I was thinking law, but I don't even know anymore. Is "taking a year off" to work/travel really the kiss of death? Should I just finish this three year degree and then be a free bird for a while until I get my shit together?



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