I have a lot of difficulty saying "no" to people - and yes, I'm serious. I'm (somehow) not a person that people envision as having this problem, and yet. I hate saying no. People ask me out, and I don't want to go. I hate dating. Seriously. I am delighted being single, and not in the slightest bit interested in changing that. Everyone is boring, and I'm reasonably sure that I've already met all the people I am ever going to like (yes, I am really THAT bitchy). But somehow when someone asks me on a date, no matter how much I really don't want to, I wind up going. And then I have a really boring time, and generally come home with a headache because I have been conditioned as a dancer and spend like HOURS trying to like ENTERTAIN them or something. And then I wonder why they like me, and had a such a good time when I was bored out of my skull. If I know it's coming I can steel myself with a "No Thank You." I can't do excuses, or I start to stammer - plus it just gives them something to try to fix. But sometimes they just SNEAK up on you and then you are like "Um, um, um... yes?" Then, in addition to being a bitch because I hate everyone (I know - I'm really not a nice person) I'm a bitch because I am totally leading a guy on - because OF COURSE he thinks I like him. I just spend all this time ACTING like I like him. How do other people learn not to be this socially retarded? Is there like a secret school or something? I only had one boyfriend in high school - is that where the rest of you learn how to do this?



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