Hi all,
I've posted before about my man issues. Still with the same one. I havent been working (for MONTHS) because he didnt know what I do. I finally told him the truth....that I was a dancer in the past. Later I told him that I still want to dance. This is probably part of the reason why we have been having so many fights - I feel controlled because I keep wanting to dance and I can't because of this relationship.
The guy is really good to me and says he will take care of me financially. But I still want to dance. He said I have to pick between the clubs and him because there is no way he is going to be with me if I work there. I cant make up my mind!!!! Without work, Im very restless. Im anxious to make money and the scene can be ....fun.....plus flexibility, no schedules, etc etc. sleep during the day....
When I am with him at night, I often want to be at work. But if I pick work, I'd want him at the end of the night & if I work he wont be there so Id be giving up this guy. If I really loved him would I be willing to forget about dancing?
Im not even sure how I feel about him anymore because for so long I felt controlled by him (but that could have been my fault cause i wasnt honest). But he has done so many wonderful things like takes care of me- bought me a phone, food,clothes all the time, goes with me to the dr....(he wants to marry and have children) HELP! Oh I should also mentioned that Im college educated and **could** do lots of other stuff, but I dont really want to. I hope to slolve this dilemma soon cause right now im really bored.



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Let me ask you this...what does he do when you dont' obey, yes I said OBEY him? Girl, you better wake up and get a clue.

Ha, that would be the day! I grew up poor! Lived in the ghetto my whole life (hell i'm 23 and I'm still here, prefer it actually) and this is who I am. But I for dam sure won't use that as a scapegoat. It's not about where you been, but where are you GOING?! Oh, and about not having to succumb to men controlling me. Sweetie, it's not about luck, it's about being smart enough to KNOW MY WORTH!

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