This is probably kind of an off the wall post and I've been thinking about whether or not I should post it for the past few days, just because I know SW is generally anti-drug for the most part, but I've been driven crazy over the last few weeks.
I've taken ecstasy every once in a while recreationally over the past few years and about a month ago I hit a rough patch in my life, during which time I popped a pill at work for the first time and really enjoyed the hustle. I didn't do anything I wouldn't normally do, but I just felt more open and friendly and much more sexy onstage and during lapdances and I almost doubled my regular earnings that day. So, I kept doing it. I lost all this weight and made all this money and I was so ecstatic! But after about 2-3 weeks of doing it most days, I noticed I started feeling tired and burnt out and like I "needed" the drug in order to work, period. So I stopped, cold turkey. Now I weigh about 10lbs more than I ever have before I started using drugs at work (and it shows), I'm not motivated to work at all, my hustle is slow and boring, I'm not making even half of what I used to make, and I'm just miserable in general.
Slowly I'm getting myself, my emotions and my drive back, but it's really difficult. I'm not looking for any advice or any type of reaction in particular, but I guess I just wanted to share my experience with anybody who may be able to relate at all... blah... I have definitely learned a lesson-- the hard way.



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I believe you Dottie and you have my support 


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