Okay. Deep breath. I'm embarrassed about sharing this, but it's something that's been on my mind, and here's a thread addressing it, so here goes - I need the experts' advice on this.
It was finally my first night (hooray) a few days ago, and I go in again in a couple more days. Monday night I gave a total of four dances: three private/lap, and one VIP room (woohoo!), which in our club is 15 minutes. To my utter surprise, I did find myself getting turned on. And it had NOTHING to do with being attracted to the guys or not. Really. One of the guys was cute, but totally not my type at all. I'm talking 'turned on' purely on a physiological level; in other words, I was getting a little wet. (Again, this is really embarrassing, but I need to be honest here.)
I was really perplexed by this, and I hope it doesn't always happen! Sheesh. A lot of your classic strip club frustrations came up that night, like drunken louts who can't figure out the credit card/funny money exchange yet keep insisting on a dance, etc., but this was totally unexpected and really, really threw me. After thinking about it for three days now, I came up with a combination of two factors that could be causing it. One, the movement we're doing is, frankly, sexual movement, even if you're not grinding (which I wasn't, really), so maybe my body was responding to this movement in almost a behavioral conditioning way. The only other time my body has moved in a similar way was in sexual situations, and so it triggered a similar physical reaction? My body was responding to my body, if you know what I mean.
I suppose the second part of the puzzle could simply be power. Supposed to ge the "greatest aphrodesiac", right? I'd never held that kind of RAW power before - I mean, maybe in personal relationships, but nothing like this. You all know what I'm talking about. It was really something, the few times I sort of stepped outside myself and observed what was going on - Wow, this guy is rock hard, basically just from looking at me! I don't mean to suggest that this is a major ego trip, but it's all new to me, and I can't help taking note . . .
Anyway. Help! This really has to stop, first because it's just kind of gross, isn't it? Our club doesn't require hard contact, but it is nude, and I certainly don't want to be touching a strange guy even lightly if that is happening! I also need to have stronger boundaries than this if I'm going to make it in this biz. Any advice or similar experiences here? The majority of posters on this thread so far have said that it either never ever happens or that it's a rarity. Again, I want to emphasize that this has absolutely nothing to do with finding the guy attractive. Anyone else had my problem?



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