OK, when I had some nasty shit come down 5 1/2 months ago (two people very close to me died in 4 days), I completely lost my appetite. It's not like I was laying around crying--I was too busy taking my best friend's place in the club, for one, and trying to help out my stepdad.
I'm not feeling traumatized at all now, though I do get sad sometimes when I think about it--but my appetite is still gone...
Of course, the smoking (cigarettes) really makes it way worse, but still--I have no desire for food, whatsoever.
I mean, I'll go to the store and come home with all of my favorite foods, as much as I want, and there it sits in the refrigerator. I can afford to eat out wherever and whenever I want--no thanks.
I've been living on chocolate milk (by the fucking gallon, lol), and whatever I can force myself to eat. It's really strange for me since I was known as "Djoser the Voracious" in college (substitute real first name there), and have always had a prodigious appetite, if much less during those times I have smoked cigarettes.
I have heard this can happen if you lose a close family member, but how damned long does it last, lol?
Now my stomach has shrank, too, I think. I'm about 10 pounds underweight now, and holding. The one time I was this much underweight was when my avater picture was taken in Key West, after my first big Biketoberfest, five years ago, but I was eating more right away after that.
I would have killed for this body at 20 years of age (I was thin then), but I am used to looking like a bad-ass, and I miss it. Sorry, I'm a bit vain, lol...
Does anyone know of any supplementary liquid diet type stuff I can use until I get it back? I prefer to avoid sugar in whatever it is.



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Every quarter pound to me is probably about equal to a "normal" person gaining a pound or two - so I think if you really attacked this thing and did all of what you could, you can definitely beat it.

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