So I auditioned for a club I really liked that was smaller and in a college town (I'm in CO) and got in. I loved the cluband that plus my other job would have been enough to suport myself. Then my employer at my other house (housekeeping) started to demand in emails that perform other "services" for him. I didn't want to, and I lost that job. So I went to Denver to audition for one of the clubs there since I had a lead on an apartment in the city. It was horrible and humiliating. Manager told me to come at 8 for amateur night. I came at 8 and they made me wait in the lobby/front desk for 25 minutes in front of the customers(who kept looking me over) then I was shuffled around and told I would have to wait 2 and a half hours in the club mingling before i cold get on stage. The amateur night was a contest and no one told me ANYTHING. I didn't know if it was my audition, if getting hired depended on winning or what. They pulled me aside and told me the "rules" of dancing but I saw every single one being broken on stage and no one getting tipped unless they did. I finally got to go up on stage, did my thing, then had to mingle with customers for another hour. Then I had to go up on stage when they announced the winner. The whole time I felt awful in the club. I know I'm a newbie and the other club I was going to work for was small but I just had no idea what I was supposed to do...Customers kept coming up to me and asking to get private dances...no explained whether or not I was allowed to yet (some of the other contestants were) Then I had 2 customers proposition me for sex.
After the announcement of the winners, The manager called me into the office. I told her I probably wouldn't be working there, thanked her for her time.
I guess I just got really shaken. The other club was low contact and I didn't realize how high contact "high contact" really was. I just feel so humilated at how naive I was...I really have tried to do my reasearch. I'm a good dancer, good conversationalist...I just couldn't stand the idea of having to get groped every night to make my $$$
This not a diss ont he girls there...All the dancers were very nice and I admire them for their hard work...it was just completely different then my other experience. At the smaller club I felt in control and safe...here I felt so incredibly vulnerable.
I have no problem with getting naked, or hustling I just got such awful vibes and felt so humiliated the whole time I wonder if maybe I should just give up on stripping. I just desperately need the money.
Because I can't find a second job in Fort Collins (place where smaller club is) I will probably have to live move back to Indiana to live with my parents and work 3 minimum wage jobs.....I just don't know what to do.
I feel embarrassed writing this email...I know that most of the horribleness was due to my naivte....I just don't know what to do.



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working 3 minium wage jobs doesnt sound good


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