Was not sure if this belongs in this forum or not.
I met a girl thru a friend almost three yrs ago and found out on first date that she was a dancer, she was in out of it. We ended up falling in love and moved in together and thats when it all fell apart. Realized how truly messed up she was and helped her, not financially but emotionally. Realtionship ended after 2 yrs. I ended up having to see a shrink becuase of all the crap she did to me, which was my fault for allowing it. Got involved in a few other relationships but they did not last. I kept in touch with the ex for a few months and she just kept telling me she loved me but was too messed up. I would run into some of her friends from time to time and they said she was fine and getting help finally. I was Can. Tire last weekend and I run into the ex on the exact day we met three yrs previous. We went out for a coffee and talked for the afternoon. She got out of the biz just after we broke up and she went into rehab for 5 months and has been clean since. She began taking medication at that time to treat a chemical imbalance and she looked great. She has not been in a relationship since we broke up. She was always brutally honest with me and she seemed to be that way again. We did have a great relationship but her mental state(s) at the time were just way too much. We were actually engaged at one point and we had some amazing times and had planned our future together. It just got way out of hand with her going back to dancing, the threats, the drugs/alcohol, etc.. We realized after meeting up again that there was still a great chemistry and strong feelings there. She alway said that we would meet again some day if it was meant to be. We both live at opposite ends of the city and where we met up again was in the middle of city. We have talked again several times over the phone and one night we ended up talking all night. She said meeting me initially was the best thing to happen to her as that was the motivating factor for her recovery which was along one. She went back to school and she has a nice job now. One night several yrs ago I drew a small picture of us together (toonish), that we put in a small frame and it was always beside our bed. She kept that in her wallet to this day and she said whenever she thought she could not make it in rehab,school,life she would pull it out and it gave her a sense of continuing, that really got to me. I was always thinking about her since we broke up and I may have been trying to compare other woman with her in new relationships. I realized last night that I am still in love with her, she got to me from our first date and we both knew very early that this one was special. My problem is that my heart is saying go but my head is undecided. She wants to go out on a date this week. I would take a bullet for this girl if need be and I think I have been waiting for her. No clue what to do.


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