Friday was supposed to be my first night of work besides my audition night. I was ready to go, then when my husband got home we got into an argument. It wasn't over dancing or anything. I was just being too moody and upset him. Then I didn't physically feel well. I had diarehha and had had it all day. I wasn't sure if it wasn't just my nerves. Then I got ready and headed towards the club and I was so sick to my stomach. I couldn't even eat my dinner on the way. When we got there, (he was just dropping me off this time) I didn't even want to go in. I was so nervous. It was the combination of having just been so emotional, being sick and being nervous all at the same time. But after about an hour I summoned to courage up to go in. To make a long story short, I got in there, changed and walked out, there were only 4 custy's there to like 25 or so girls. All the girls were just standing around, some were being nice, some weren't. There was no way to get away from all of them, no custy's to talk to and I knew my husband was only going to be outside for another 1/2 hour. I had no way to get a hold of him after he left. There was a girl in the locker room laying on the floor crying and freaking out. It was kind of disturbing to watch. And I didn't know if I could take being there all night. I was afraid if I couldn't take it I would be alone and stranded. So I got my clothes on and walked out. The dj and bouncer wanted me to stay but I just felt like I couldn't handle it, they told me I had done a really good job. I really didn't feel like I was in the right frame of mind, I physically felt bad too. I just didn't feel like myself. I wish I would have just stayed. Actually I should just have never went in. I knew I didn't feel right. It wasn't like I was on the schedule or anything. I could've made an excuse.
I really liked that club. There were a lot of nice girls there. Should I try to go back and face the embarrasment of walking out or should I just try another club and start fresh? Do you think the club and girls would understand and give me another chance. They all knew it was only my 2nd time ever dancing?
Thanks for any opinions.
Amanda



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