All I ever do is worry about these people and it's never enough. It will never be enough until I move back in with my damn grandparents and happily work a mundane 9-to-5 and make them dinner every night. They didn't want me to get married, then they wanted to be there; they didn't want me to go to Australia, then they didn't want me to get a job in my field, then they didn't want me to get divorced or move to L.A. Now they've already decided, without meeting him, that they don't like my boyfriend, and he and I are going to spend a very uncomfortable week with them starting Friday.
They think my ex was just the greatest thing in the world, G-d's gift to women, and now I'm with a tattooed, sushi-eating Los Angelino who doesn't support me even though we live together unmarried. I'm sure it's going to be all his fault we're not married, too, even though I DO NOT FUCKING WANT TO GET MARRIED AGAIN. You know what, I had Mr. Corporate Good Boy, who married me and supported me, and he treated me like a pet. You'd think my family would want me to be fucking HAPPY.
And the worst thing is that they never actually say any of this shit to my face. They just do that Southern "oh how nice" thing to everything I say or do, and then talk shit behind my back. WTF, if it wasn't for these people, I'd still be in Australia where I was happy. But for all their insistence that they just want me to be happy, it's all bullshit. They want me to be happy doing what THEY want me to do! And I'm not going to be happy living with my fucking grandparents working some bullshit job in Memphis.
Now they're talking about having me stay at my grandparents' house and my boyfriend staying at my mom's. Fuck that noise. Do they even realize how insulting that is? Like we can't conduct ourselves with dignity and respect in separate bedrooms in the same house? My mom seriously needs to come to grips with the fact that I am NOT a teenage virgin, I am a divorcee pushing thirty who has not lived under her roof for a decade.
If I'm such a collossal disappointment to them, why do I even care what these people think or want? Why do I even bother to make them happy or go see them at all? All they ever do is criticize and make me crazy, so why don't they just disown me and let me go live my damn life?
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you! Let me know next time you go out to the "Ranches". I'm game for some whore lovin'. Seriously.
But seriously, maybe just put some distance between you and your family. You sound like you've got it together and you really shouldn't have to explain yourself. I'm sure they just want whats best for you and maybe they just don't realize that what they want for you isn't what will make you happy. .......and if it makes you feel any better ,most families have similar issues. My grandparents would DIE if they knew half of the shit I do.





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