I was SO excited about going home for my class reunion, remember? Now it looks like it is SO not going to happen. I already paid for my ticket for the event. But I cant afford the plane from Orlando to Albany, NY and back, the rental car for a few days, and a hotel room.... I am devistated. I was going to get to see my brother too. We graduated together! I havent seen him in almost 9 years now. I wont be able to go visit my few biological family members who love me still. I wont be able to bring roses to my mom and nana's graves. I wont be able to see old friends and see the hometown I miss badly.
I just... I really miss home and havent been ONCE since living in Florida. I miss it so bad I could puke. I might too if I keep stressing and crying. Nothing I plan to do ever works!!!
I have no faith in myself to go to Vegas now either. I SUCK at being a stripper. I really hate me and everything I do. I always screw shit up! So How can I even THINK of Vegas now? I can barely afford a weekend tri home let along a full drive out drive back, stay for a month trip to VEGAS? I am really NOT a good enough dancer to be there. Let alone be booked as a feature. Ugh. So no Vegas. No seeing my adoptive dad do his magic shows either.
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Best of luck to you!!!
Life sucks sometimes.

Paige, you are wonderful. Please don't let this keep you down. Maybe you can see your family at a more convienient time even though I am sure the reunion would have been special. I would send you money too if I weren't so broke.
I hope everything works out somehow.


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