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    I was SO excited about going home for my class reunion, remember? Now it looks like it is SO not going to happen. I already paid for my ticket for the event. But I cant afford the plane from Orlando to Albany, NY and back, the rental car for a few days, and a hotel room.... I am devistated. I was going to get to see my brother too. We graduated together! I havent seen him in almost 9 years now. I wont be able to go visit my few biological family members who love me still. I wont be able to bring roses to my mom and nana's graves. I wont be able to see old friends and see the hometown I miss badly.

    I just... I really miss home and havent been ONCE since living in Florida. I miss it so bad I could puke. I might too if I keep stressing and crying. Nothing I plan to do ever works!!!

    I have no faith in myself to go to Vegas now either. I SUCK at being a stripper. I really hate me and everything I do. I always screw shit up! So How can I even THINK of Vegas now? I can barely afford a weekend tri home let along a full drive out drive back, stay for a month trip to VEGAS? I am really NOT a good enough dancer to be there. Let alone be booked as a feature. Ugh. So no Vegas. No seeing my adoptive dad do his magic shows either.


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    Aw hugs Paige - I wish I could help! I would gladly throw some $ your way if I had any but I am so broke also. I know how it sucks to be away from home and loved ones, been there - actually still here... Maybe you can get home at a later date? I know the reunion would be a great time to go, but anytime is good if you still get to go home, catch up with your family at least and maybe some friends if not all of them. Just work towards going, don't focus so hard on when.
    And dont be so mean to yourself, we all think you rock!!! Hope you feel better soon!!!

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    I know I haven't been here long but... I am so sorry, Paige. I wouldn't wish hardship on anyone (unless I hated them.) Anyway, I know you've probably exhausted all your resources but here's a few money making ideas I've had to use in the past- yardsale, ebay, and getting a credit card with 0 payments/0 interest for 6 mo, etc... And keep your chin up, I'm sure everything will work out Best of luck to you!!!

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    Life sucks sometimes.
    Hope you're feeling better soon Paige.
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    Oh Paige i am sorry to hear how you are feeling. If you can't go home right now you could use the money you are saving to go to vegas and go home later. Although I am sure you are good enough to dance in vegas everyone on this board loves ya you would do great.

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    aw, i'm so sorry Paige

    that really sucks. i've only been away for 7 months and i'm already dying of homesickness.

    maybe you could work a night or 2 in albany to pay for the flight back? i know i've been bitching about my club, but it really isn't awful. saturday nights have been pretty good and things seem to be picking up a bit now. i know they'd LOOOOVE to have you, even for just a couple nights

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    Paige, you are wonderful. Please don't let this keep you down. Maybe you can see your family at a more convienient time even though I am sure the reunion would have been special. I would send you money too if I weren't so broke.


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    Oh Paige sweety *big hugs* We have to be able to figure something out... I mean im sure you dont desperatly need the rental car right? There has to be cheaper ways to get around... maybe you could work a couple nights in NY to pay for a return air fare.. and we can figure out a way for you to come up with the flight to NY... this has to happen for you, you really deserve a trip home.

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    Paige... so sorry about your situation and I hope things get better for you. I would send you some money too except I really am flat broke at the moment. I'm burned out from dancing and took off way more time than I should have. I hope everything works out somehow.

    And what's this bullshit about you not being good enough to dance in Vegas? Are you fucking crazy? I've never danced there, but I've been to Spearmint Rhino and Club Paradise as a customer and you could get hired anywhere you want. You are smoking hot (which I don't say unless I mean it) and I love your new avatar! However, after paying for traveling expenses, hotel room, etc., you might not come out any more ahead than in FL. With your looks, personality, and intelligence, I find it hard to believe you're not making bank in FL!

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    I was going to say the same thing about returning home at a later date to see your loved ones. Sorry your not feeling too great today, hope things turn around for ya!

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    sorry it didnt work out paige. some tough love here. GO TO WORK. i know you have other jobs. however if you went to work more than once a month you would have the money. please dont be mad at me. maybe it will motivate you to work some. much love, velvet

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    Sorry things are so bad for you right now, Paige. I really hope things get better. *Hugs*

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    awww, I'm so sorry you're having such a tough time of it. I know how it is to miss family since mine is all in New Orleans. I'm trying to move back but I'm terrified and totally stressed out about it all. But I know how it is to miss your home because I feel really distant here in Florida from them.

    When were you planning on going to NY? How much time is there? I agree with velvet, get to work and make some $! And maybe if you can't go now you could still go in a month or so, just try to plan it out. I wouldn't give up hope of going if you can't get there right away.

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    There must be a way to make it happen...do you have time to pick up a few extra shifts at work? It might be worth it to just work your ass off...you'll be tired and it'll be tough, but the reward of going to your reunion/seeing the fam will be worth it.

    There's money out there to be had-- money with 'Paige's class reunion' written all over it-- you just have to go get it!

    Give us more specs (when is the reunion?); we'll help you figure out how to make this work!

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    Its not going to work. I've been working 4 jobs, 7 days a week, all month and it isnt going to do it. I have too much debt. I'm was only going to be home for 2-3 days, so I wouldnt have time to work, and where I'm from has SHIT clubs that I wouldnt step foot into anyways. I wouldnt be able to stay longer to work, or I'd lose 2 of my jobs here in FL....
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    I got up this morning and read this, and did not know what to say. If my balls were not to the wall, help would be coming one way or another. You still have a place you call home, that is important. To me home is wherever I may roam, but that is for another thread.

    Sounds like you need some logistical support here. I know I would not have gotten my last little operation off the ground without help. I know I’d be much happier, doing it all on my own. Sometimes even super-people need help. That does not mean I like asking for it, or will do so needlessly.

    Regarding the logistics of your operation, have you considered these options:

    Rent a bomb or Rent a wreck? Sure the cars are not as nice, but they will run. They are usually about 75-50% cheaper

    Is there anyone that can take you from the airport to the rental place, so you don’t need a taxi and have to pay airport prices?

    Is there anyone willing to put you up for the night, family, friends, someone here? Even one night is a considerable amount, when you’re looking at NY hotels, even the cheaper ones. Sometimes I have had to live and breathe by the contra deals I make.

    I hate it when I see failure coming, and tend to say exactly the same kind of things. I’m good at what I do, but never really accept that. I know my friends and family consider me one of the best, but I never will. The fact that I am in the situation I am in now, is testament to that. If I was the best, I’d still be comfortable in Melbourne. That is what I like to believe. Also as long as I know I can do better, and as long as there is someone out there better than me, I’ll personally never be satisfied. Pity, the more rational side of me says, there will always be someone better than one self; you just have to be good enough for yourself.

    Paige, I’d wager most of this site thinks you kick ass. If you did not know already, I do. There are always others out there that seem better, or more capable. What matters is that you find a way to achieve your goal, and if we can help we will. If it is anything like my previous operation, I know it will be a stressful up hill battle. How much is it worth fighting for? I could tell you it is always darkest before the light, but what really matters is working your ass off. I know I've been there. Still sometimes it does not happen. You can always journey home when you make the resources permit. Make things happen, better to try and fail then to never try. I've been there as well.

    And yes I’m close to going into a self-destructive phase right now. I’m just forcing myself to work harder, and not allowing the apathy and disgust, get the best of me. Hard battle that. Just keep fighting.
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    Paige, First of all, I hope that it somehow works out for you. I also have some problems with a lot of debt. I pay it little by little and usually have no money left over. BUT, sometimes, I HAVE to splurge and treat myself to vacations or whatever. Yeah, that's a couple hundred that could go onto my credit cards, but that's no way to live. YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE. If there's any way for you to sacrifice and just go, THEN GO. Cheeryripeboy made some good points that may help you out. I certainly hope so.

    Secondly, Paige, you are very beautiful and oozing sex appeal. Seriously. I find it really hard to believe that you are not a good stripper. Don't beat yourself up and get down on yourself. If this trip absolutely can not happen, please don't let it get you down.

    I don't know the logistics of it, but is there a way to set up a paypal account that people can send 'gifts' to. You know how girls have their amazon wishlists and things like that? Any way that can happen?






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    Quote Originally Posted by Hello_Kitty27

    I don't know the logistics of it, but is there a way to set up a paypal account that people can send 'gifts' to. You know how girls have their amazon wishlists and things like that? Any way that can happen?

    I've been trying. Nada.
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    Why not take a greyhound bus trip.It would be super cheap and have your brother drive you around while you are there.Traveling buy bus would probably be cheapest compared to flying or renting a car.Maybe ride a train?I have no idea how much it would cost,but it sure would be nice to look out t he window going thru the countryside!

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    Quote Originally Posted by PaigeDWinter
    I've been trying. Nada.
    Well give us your paypal info or something so people could possibly donate

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    /me weilds mallet of destruction in general direction of paypal/ebay

    /me wonders what that direction is?

    /me swings mallet

    UH-OH! <G> hope that was not expensive!

    -Sorry you never know where this mallet of destruction will take me.

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    ill donate to the "Paige should go home for a trip damnit" cause. Just let me know how.

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    I feel odd about getting helped, to be honest. Heh. Egads. I guess the best way would be the AlertPay link I tossed up earlier in the thread?
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    What a shame, Paige - I was just looking at your photos thinking....holy smokes.....what a bummer of a time to lose confidence. Wish I could help....all I can say is...YOWZA.
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    and WHAT A GREAT BOOTY!!!

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