Wasnt sure if this would be better suited in BB or LO....
Ok, I just got home from school. I had to drop all 4 classes I was taking, and I'm sooo bummed. I really liked them, but I missed most of them since I've started. I'm so behind and today I went in and felt like death. So I'm going to get Incompletes so I can at least redo them.
This is bumming me out majorly. School was all I had, I can't work, and my body won't let me do anything. I have sinus problems, stress, IBS spiraling out of control, chronic pain problems, migraines, and sinus headaches. No health insurance yet. I know I need a septoplasty, but we don't have the money.
I really don't want to go dance again; I don't even have the energy to get out of bed most days so fat chance I could even make any money dancing.
Add to all this I'm depressed over how much my health is affecting my life; I can never know how I'll feel, can never makes plansand stick to them, and people get mad at me a lot for it.
I also found that I'm lactose intolerant, so no more dairy for me (All my favorite foods have dairy, so I feel like I cant eat anything so I walk around pissed off and hungry.Makes for a pleasant CorsicaFire...)
I'm just so not ...me anymore. Out of shape, tired all the time (even though I sleep a lot), crabby,depressed, sick, unreliable me now and I hate it.
So I already take a heavy duty multivitamin, fish oil capsules, garlic pills, echinacea, and vitamin B12. I take way too much sudafed and headache meds because I just cant function; I have built up an immunity to most meds I can take and I have to take more, thus making me dopey a lot of the time.
So this semester is going to be my regrouping semester so I can go back next year. The only thing I have going on now is getting our disaster area of a house clean. Doesn't help that it's huge and overwhelming ,and I already have no energy.
Most of my clothes dont fit me (even my bigger clothes) because I've gained weight. It was nicewhen I gained gained 30 pounds and it looked great. But i dont want anymore gained, but it just keeps adding onto my weight because I cant get myself to be active because I always feel sick and I feel flabby.
So basically I need support, a gameplan (no doctors for now, no dinero.) for self help... Just basically ANY help from any area thats going wrong and I need help on. I need me back!
I'm begging you all. Anything you can think of to help.![]()


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