Why is it that I lost 40 lbs and now am more insecure than ever before?
Just to give some examples:
I get completely freaked out when someone comments that I've lost weight. (I feel like they're saying "Jeez you were a giant cow and now you're a medium cow").
I'm afraid my bf is going to leave me for random people he works worth and some of his customers. I've been getting insanely jealous of the stupidest things. (We've been together for YEARS and I've never not trusted him. Most wonderful guy EVER!)
Sometimes I look in the mirror and feel bigger than I ever was. But I'm not! Somewhere deep down inside, I know I look so much better in my clothes now....I'm wearing smaller sizes (an 8....don't laugh!) and they fit good, there's no fat trying to sneak out and I've thinned out nicely, but ....I'm more critical of myself than ever before, I've become self-conscious and insecure. Why is this?
I've never had self-esteem issues and this started about 2-3 months ago after losing a bulk of the weight. I've turned into some kind of nutty jealous psycho bitch. WTF is wrong with me?!



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