ok, so i never need relationship advice (other than directly from 1 good friend's mouth) but now i need to hear it from all of you.
HELP!
im seeing someone now (O) for about 3.5 months. we are exclusive (not boyfriend-gf) for a good while now, more than 2 months. Before he and i re-met** each other, i was sleeping with a friend of mine, J. well, when O and I have been chilllin with a group of friends, it's usually his (and they like me, have friended me on myspace and his best friend wants me to get O to go with us 2-the best friend and i- to europe). My friends are always telling me how i go MIA and all this and i end up committing to a party where J will be at to bring O. J and i are still pretty close as friends, and since O and i have been even seeing each other J hasn't been over here at all to my place to hang just us two. we do still talk online all the time, but that's neither here nor there.
I like O. a lot. i could see potential for growth. i want him to be my boyfriend, be committed to me. he takes time to adjust, he needs to take things slowly, and i am being as understanding as possible with that.
now the ** = when i was 14 O was my boyfriend back then. I was a slutty little child and when off at summer camp I cheated on him having sex for the first time with some russian dude who i never saw again. and then *kicks self retrospectively* I TOLD o!!! I didnt tell him it was sex, no, his friend who i went to shcool with that i was friends with told him that. *shakes head at my own mess* so NOW, flashing forward, O is having trust issues.
Ladies, i have said it all. "I am freaking 25 years old! I am not the same whore/child/immature girl i once was! That was over ten years ago! People Change!"
Fast forward to the party. J is there. O is too. im drunk (and i dont drink, almost ever, im a water-at-work girl) and sloppy and apparently there is a conversation abotu whether J is black and (he acts uber white) he turns to me and says, "Am i black?" and drunken me says, "In bed he is!" *my foot tastes pretty bad*
*slaps self* and above all... i didnt remember this. J told me tonight when i mentioned that O was having trust issues re: upcoming weekend a bunch of us going to wedding and J is one of them.
WHAT DO I DO?! shoudl i write/verbally say apology to O profusely apologizing and saying how dumb and stupid i feel or do i let it go? Right now as it stands, he says that he doesnt want to knwo about the weekend's events at all. liek, dont mention them at all or bring them up.![]()
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