I've been taking some time off to deal with personal and physical things (the majority of which I've already shared in other posts, so we don't need to rehash here). Tonight, I gathered up my metaphorical balls and had myself put on the schedule for next Friday. Then I came home and started freaking out like a newb.
All of these unbidden thoughts keep coming into my head. What if I've forgotten how to make flirty small talk with repulsive men? What if my body isn't what the boys want? What if the girls who are there now don't like me? What if I can't get a locker? What if I fall on my face because of the 7" heels? What if I don't make any money?
ARG!! I am not like this. I just keep flashing back to my newbie days and man, were they ugly. I do not want to repeat them. *so worried*



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Money Makes Me Horny
just take a long bath the night before. relax. destress in all ways possible. and pep talk yoruself up before work on friday. listen to a good song before getting out of the car, and know you are one hot mama!
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