Hi
This might should go to the newbie board cuz I am a newbie. Not sure.
I am sooooo upset that I don't want to do this anymore. I just started a couple of weeks ago. My personality is: I don't want drama. No troubles. If someone hits me by mistake, I say I am sorry (regarding other dancers). If someone is nice, I am nice back. I don't want ANY problems.
Last night a drunk dancer went off on me.
We were ALL in the dressing room getting ready for a promo/feature.
A dancer called me over. Asked me my name. I thought she was going to be nice.
She had something on her hair so I went to remove it and she
SCREAMS, "DONT YOU TOUCH ME"
Then she proceeded to yell at me that if she sees another person touch my pu**y again she is going to tell (Uh, like she was already doing that then), and that I give them all a bad name and it's not right and it hurts everyone else there".
I had a fresh guy try to get his way with me a couple times (I allow butt cheek touching but NOTHING ELSE but he tried to get his hands in too close to my thong back there) and instead of freaking out like I guess I was supposed to, I told him to stop and he did. I guess she saw this when she was in VIP at the same time. I am just getting off my period. Why the hell would I allow it then, plus I don't allow it ever. It makes me sick. Doesn't matter, she thinks she saw something more and she humiliated me.I wish I wasn't so much in shock, or I would have talked about my period or something. I didn't want to yell back. That wouldn't have helped.
I know that I should just get over it, go there, do my job and leave but it REALLY HURT. I was so shocked that I just looked at her and I told her whatever happened was unintentional in my part and I fixed the situation when it happened.
I know for a fact many of the other girls allow lots of crap to happen there. Even worse if you know what I mean. Like no boobie touching. I saw one girl on her back in VIP on the couch and the guys hands were all over them!!
The other girls in the dressing room just stood there and watched...in shock. One looked at me and mouthed she was sorry. I looked at the house mom and she mouthed "let it go", and verbally said two times, "I just work here" (to keep out of it).
I went down and did the promo (so hard not to cry during the dances) and I met up with my confidant that works at the "shop" and she took me into the break area to help me. She encouraged me to talk to the manager so I did that and since it was the last hour of business I just stayed there. Manager said that the mixture of alcohol, women (horomones), and competition can make things like this happen. House mom came down for other reasons and we 3 chatted. Fortunately she said that this dancer was just talk, and wouldn't do anything more. Plus she said most of the girls were drunk last night.....they probably wouldn't remember.
It was so hard to go back to the dressing room at the end of the night. I hid out by my locker. My "neighbor" said some encouraging things..."come in, do your work, think about your kids, think about your debt, think about christmas, and leave...don't think about making friends here...they all talk s#@* about each other. My "neighbor" said it was great that I didn't "fight" back...and that she would have went off on her, and that I did the right thing.
I am not used to this environment. I am not looking for friends, but I expect courtesy or something like that. I am crying right now as I type this.I feel like a piece of crap. I can't help but be concerned about what people think. I don't want people to think I am someone that I don't even like. It ISN'T fair. I wish I was guilty of it and maybe I wouldn't have felt so bad.
I did see the evil dancer at the end of the night. I didn't let her see my tears and I just looked at her and away and she did the same. But I couldn't help but think of evil thoughts off and on today about her....like she shouldn't have messed with me. Karma baby. Karma.
But I am letting her make me feel like dying. Damn.
WHY OH WHY DID THIS HAVE TO HAPPEN???
Cherlo![]()



I wish I wasn't so much in shock, or I would have talked about my period or something. I didn't want to yell back. That wouldn't have helped.
I feel like a piece of crap. I can't help but be concerned about what people think. I don't want people to think I am someone that I don't even like. It ISN'T fair. I wish I was guilty of it and maybe I wouldn't have felt so bad.
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