i am beyond unmotivated. I have to work today, and I really need the money. For fucks sake xmas i still need another grand and then add in 1200 in bills left this month
While I have plenty of time to make that ... I dont even want to leave my apt. I am not depressed, so im stumped. Ive worked 4 days since I came back from vacation. I dont mind being there once I get to work,its the getting there that is driving me insane.
And when im there I just dont seem or am approachable. I have NO idea whats going on or how to fix it.
Im wondering if I should just suck it up and go with it. Or take a break and dance somewhere else in another state on my days off ?
I think im hitting that point , as I do about every 3-6 months where how good I have it at home, makes me realize all the stupid shit I put up with at work and it bothers me.
infact it sickens me.
I cannot put up with another mother fucker , asking me " what will you do for 20 bucks" ...or " do 4 dances for 60, no one will know "
Or better yet " will i cum "
dude get a LIFE you pathetic reject! I hate cheap ass customers but I rather you just be cheap rather than a lowlife and bargain shop and haggle.
my god!
last night some guys said all of the above and haggled me. Another was complaining yet sitting there all fucking night drinking. He says to me " is this it..why is this place so bad "
I said you can either make the best of it and have a good time or you can fucking leave. and i walked off
From now on , im just going to do that...walk off. because wasting my time isnt working.
i wish there was an incredible cure for this but i dont think there is other than time off.
Just a rant.


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Very well put, my thoughts exactly!
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