I hate nights like these-I've been going through a very rough patch lately and just went back to work this weekend after taking a couple of weeks off while working the occasional day. I normally leave the house around 7, but found myself finding excuses to do anything other than get ready for work and get my butt out of the house (surfing the net, wrapping Christmas presents, writing e-mails..)! I even went as far as taking a shower, fixing my hair and makeup, getting dressed just like usual, but when it came time to go, I would've ended up getting there at 9:30-so my justification was that I would get there so late it wouldn't really be worth it! And the thing I don't understand is that money is tight right now and I really needed to work! I think part of my problem is that I've been having relationship issues and have been pretty down, so its been hard for me to put on my happy/smiley/having a great time stripper persona when I just generally feel like shite because what is going on in my personal life and I can't seem to completely leave those feelings at home-you know what I mean? Has anyone else gone through this and have any advice/words of wisdom to share? Thanks, and *hugs* for any responses!



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I know how you are feeling - sorta. I had a really really bad week last week and I just couldn't force myself to go in to work besides the one or two nights you saw me there. And today I realllly needed to go but I got really drunk last night like an idiot and felt really sick today. All I can say is that I have felt like this, too, and that next time I see you at work I'm going to give you a huge hug!!!!
Just don't let me sit in the dressing room and smoke - I needa make up for some missed days. My minimum tonight is one million dollars. I even thought about going onstage...but.....


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