ok girls, put your handbags down!
my problems with being a stripper arent meant to cause handbags at dawn!
sassfire, i do not think i am "all that" to the degree that you think i do. you may argue this point if you like, but im really not concerned in arguing with someone who has never met me
to clear things up, i went to work on saturday night and my friend wasnt there so i had no "crutch" to lean on while the club was empty and became overwhelmed with negative thoughts and eventually suffered an anxiety attack and went home because i couldnt calm down and control my emotions.
THAT is my real problem. my problem is that for some reason i am scared of approaching the custies. (so sassfire, if i thought i were all that, would this be a problem?)
so then i sit there and watch all the other girls make money while i get more and more freaked out in my head and have to go home...
this happened in another, more classy club and was the reason why i left stripping for two years. having read HH for the past month and grown up as a woman, i thought i was ready to go back. but i guess i still have the same old issues.
i need to get tipsy to shut my brain off in order to approach the custies. now i dont want to be getting drunk every night i work! so i need to figure out how to invent a character when i am at work that is fearless.
it also doesnt help that this is my only form of income right now and i am beyond broke.
so anyway. the point is, i need to find that sassy, outgoing, fearlessly confident girl i used to be growing up and send her out there to bring home the bacon
now you two girls can carry on, its nice having two girls fighting over me

(said in a total tongue-in-cheek way in case a handbag comes flying over my head!)
ps: my original moans about the club are real issues, but they arent the biggest issue and at the end of the day, i think i should be able to make any club work for me, so the onus is on me to learn some sales skills...
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