Ok...I know you all don't need to hear me complain about this or that...well, this isn't that, but I need to express my emotions to my SW friends...
I feel like I am headed nowhere...I feel like I have let time pass me by...here I am on the Computer...I miss my grandparents down in texas...I feel like I am the world's BIGGEST loser and that I am too old at 24 to continue pursuing my music career...I feel like I should go down there whee there is no opportunity to pursue my dream but I would be with the people I love most...am I being too hard on myself?
Maybe the fact that it is freezing outside and that I'm sick doesn't help, but i feel like shiza...the a/hole I was seeing lied to me about being married and having a baby...the guy doesn't give 2 cents about me and hung up the phone when I confronted him about the situation...bye bye asshole hello Mr. Heartache...GET OUT OF HERE
it sucks... i left an abusive relationship that left me torn up inside and have been single till now, but atleast I left the situation when I found out what happened..it sucks though
It's hard being alone sometimes...the only family I have are my grandparents and sis. whom all live in texas...I don't know if I should give up my dreams to go back with them...I am crying inside not sure how much time they have to share with me on this planet (atleast in this existance)...
Here I am in NYC, a truely wonderful place, but feel lonely as hell, and am broke as a joke..I haven't danced since last jan. and want to start working out to start ASAP!...this summer the bastard that is out of my life kicked my hip injury intentionally...here I am today wanting to be able to run and get IN SHAPE but am FRUSTRATED as hell because when I try I worsen the condition...I got an MRI last week so now I need to see a good doc.
anyone know of a great hip/body alignment specialist? Like top notch physical therapists, rolfers, osteopaths....
I know that once I get that looked at and prof. helped, I can get back on my 2 feet work the HELL OUT..and start supporting myself like I should be doing...
anyone know of an affordable pool membership or something?
I miss my Texas friends and family, and am here because I am pursuing a singing recording deal (I know amongst 100,000,000)...the indie. label that picked me up lied to me and is trying to force me into this pre-packaged image they have made for a "Latin Pop Star" even though my sound is folk/indie/ambient...bla bla bla
Hunter College just informed me that I get no financial aid because my unorganized ass waited too late for registration...I Feel like a bum that is headed no where...FUCK !!!!!
I have 600 $ to my name and my boss is selling his bar (no more job)...I know I can get another job but DAMN!
Should I take lessons several times a week or go to college (not a conservatory)...are lessons sufficient enough in developing musical advancement???I have a temperature of 102 maybe I feel drunk inside...![]()
THANKS FOR YOUR TIME any advice (on the hip specialist) good thoughts words or wishes would help!



...GET OUT OF HERE
it sucks... i left an abusive relationship that left me torn up inside and have been single till now, but atleast I left the situation when I found out what happened..it sucks though 
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