I think it sounds like you are really eloquent and also that you're becoming more aware of everything about your job -- what it is, the toll is takes, how it affects you, etc.
You might want to think about keeping a journal/blog/narrative of some sort where you just write about your night. Maybe share it with people. It will make each night more of a unique experience more than just your job and your awakening to a sort of new morality or whatever is going through your mind that you're currently coping with.
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. I don't work clubs on Friday or Saturday nights anymore. I do parties instead. I know that it is scary to a lot of dancers to do bachelor parties, but I'm dancing the whole hour I'm there and I rarely have a conversation beyond 'Do you like my boobs?' 
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