*WARNING WHINY PATHETIC BLABBING*
Ugh im being a drama ho I know...im being whiny and missrible but I just cant handle it.
I used to laugh at the girls who went on about how their lives ended when their men left them... I always just said 'oh get over it'. But now I know how they feel.
I just feel like my life has stopped, my world has fallen out from under my feet. I dont know what to do with myself.
I cant eat, I cant sleep, I forget to breath... I've been sick to my stomache and just pathetic. I dont want to move from the couch I just sit here watching re-runs of friends cuddling the stuffed puppy Alex got me on our first date. I seriously feel like i've lost the will to live.
I love him so much... and I just dont want to let go of him.
He said he cant be with me anymore at first but now hes saying he just needs time and space. I tried to give that to him last night.. but I caved after he had been out for about 5 hours and sent him a text msg because I missed him. Everytime I see him I just want him to hold me... I cry when I see pictures of him, I cry when I hear music he introduced me to.. I took the elevator downstairs to go to the store and I started crying because I thought of all the times we made out in it.
I know im being pathetic but I just cant stop myself...
I am willing to do whatever it takes to keep him... anything... I want to give him the time and space he said he needs... I really think there is a chance we can save our relationship... I know what i've done wrong... I was a bit controlling, I took advantage of him and was a bit possessive... I know I was these things and i've been trying to change now(I admit I was getting a lot better till Friday when I freaked on him for no stupid reason).
I just dont know what to do with myself.. im a complete emotional wreck.. i've lost weight, my eyes are bloodshot and puffy and im pale as a ghost... I just cant bring myself to move.
Ugh im sorry... I just needed to blab... im not looking for sympathy im really not... I know im being pathetic but I just cant stop myself...


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It's okay to feel like this! Sounds like you two were together for a while. You deserve to mourn the relationship. whether it can be saved or not, time will tell. It may be hard to realize, but good or bad, things happen for a reason and it may be time to move onto a new chapter in your life.


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