Goodness gracious. Background: grew up in a pretty repressed household, always in trouble for some little thing. Fast forward to now: I am so intimidated by management at strip clubs. Just like I used to cry when my parents would get mad at me, if there is ever a problem at work, even something incredibly minor, I start to feel that horrible "getting in trouble" anxiety. It's so weird. For instance, I haven't worked at my "home club" in over a month. I was starting up my own business and taking 8 hours at school. This has been a really great time for me, and has allowed me to skip the January slowness bullshit! Now I want to go back to my home club. I called and spoke to one of the managers on Friday night, but he said that I should call back the GM. Today I called again and asked for the GM, and the same manager said he wouldn't be there for a while.
So anyway, I am totally nervous about even talking to the GM. Stupid, I know. I know it's one of those things that I just have to get over with, and then I'll feel fine. But I'm worried that he will be mad that I have been away for so long. I wasn't on the schedule, but they didn't exactly call me, either. So...I don't know. I didn't do anything wrong, really, but I'm still fucking nervous.
Why do I let these retards control my feelings? Why am I so scared of this stupid authority figure?
I really like my club...I guess I should talk to the manager. Sorry this is so rambling and sorta ranty...Can anyone relate to this?
BTW, I started back after my break on Friday at another sort of divey club and made 200 dollars! Not good, but not bad! Yay! (Thanks, glamazon!)


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