I start shooting on Friday. I have eighty tetratrillion things to do by then and I'm freaked.
Right on cue, the bizarre nightmares started three nights ago. In the first, I forgot to pick up my cinematographer from the airport; he got mad and flew back home, so I had no cinematographer and no camera. The next night, it turned out there's only one grip & electric company in the whole world and their prices are so high I'm starring in harcore porn (including anal, aiieeee) to afford a grip & electric package. This morning I woke K up to ask him if we broke up last night, because the dream was so vivid; I dreamt that he just suddenly decided he didn't love me anymore, so he broke up with me the day before the shoot. I had to find a new place to live, get ready to move out, and direct an ex-lover who'd just broken my heart in a comedy short.
And of course, right on schedule, this morning I woke up covered in pimples. By 9:30 am I was collapsed on the floor sobbing and crawling to the bathroom to throw up. On top of it all, I'm supposed to get my period today or tomorrow. So I'm stressed, overwhelmed, behind schedule, beyond broke, and hormonal on top of it all.
Oh, AND it's been two weeks since I was rear-ended and the guy's insurance company STILL won't send me to fix my car. He hasn't been returning their calls so they haven't cut me a check. They refuse to get me a rental or reimburse me for my time with no vehicle. Fortunately K is cool about playing chauffeur for right now, but I'm furious that my car has just been sitting there for two weeks and I can't even have a mechanic look at it. I can't afford to fix it myself and the snippy bitch on the phone said it could be as much as a month before they do anything for me. (That was the last straw that led to the sobbing/puking collapse.)
I seriously need to calm the fuck down. K's been great, very supportive and calming but I'm still shaking. On Monday morning, I'm going to wrap this shoot, sleep as late as I can, and go to the damn spa to relax. Until then I don't know how I'm going to calm down... any ideas?


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