Wow, alot has transpired since my abscence. I just want you to actually hear me out AlexxaHex, no seriously. As you read this don't glance over my statement with a response already prepared, I want you to really hear me out. You said alot of unneccessary comments. Lol, I can take it though because I'm used to people jumping down my throat when I say something that makes them uncomfortable. Apparently I made you feel uneasy.....why.....I dunno

Why are you repeatdly urging me to "take it". Why do you have a problem with me speaking my mind towards the ill treatment that I may recieve as a black dancer? Why does it bother you? I urge you to take a look at my first post, if you can't find it I will do the leg work for ya. I clearly stated that I hate whiners, I hate people who complain without looking for a way to stimulate change. I believe change starts with discussing the matter at hand. Have you noticed the warm reception I give you EVERY time you post. The reason being is not because I like kissing ass, but I pride myself off of giving people a chance, I'm giving you a chance to understand my plight. The reason being is that I don't dislike you, I don't dislike white people ( my stapefather is white for Christsakes) I want you to understand what we may deal with because through your own experience you can spread the knowledge and love onto other people that I may never be able to reach.
You seem like a good hearted person, but you really seem as though you're fighting the wrong fight. Yes, I truly believe you love black people, but what good is loving me if you're not willing to stand up for me. I'm admittely teary eyed as I type this because your confusion scares me. I wonder how many more people out their are mumbling to themselves "Won't they just get over it" Well, I want to ask you something, why the fuck don't I over hear people asking why jewish people don't get over the Holocaust? Please, I beg of you to tell me why their aren't toms of people who think they're overreacting. Sure, they're skeptics that believe the Holocaust may never have occured, but those are far few and between. Yes, you may experience racisim, no doubt about that.
But my people are still recovering, our egos have been shattered, our men have been raped, I have NO, allow me to repeat NO concept of my ancestory, and I'm judged based off of the melanin of my skin!!! I would choose being an outcast due to tattoos anyday, operative word..CHOICE. It's a big difference, and you suggesting that it's not is hurtful and insulting. Don't be too quick to jump down my throat for calling out zoejane, I said before that I would call out random insensitive comments. Nothing wrong with that, because like I said before YOU have the option of responding back.
I also welcomed Zoejane because I identified with her pain, if you don't believe me go back and read my post. I don't want this to be a "pity party" but who the hell said it was???? This entire community has several posts a day titled "RANT" or "I HAD THE WORST FUCKIN NIGHT" so YOU my dear are actually trying to censor me

funny how these things play out. Why can't I RANT over how sucky it is to be a black dancer sometimes? I couldn't make this shit up even if I wanted to! I also want women who may deal with discrimination feel welcome to speak about it. If I didn't speak on the racisit shit that I've dealt with do you wanna know how fucked up I would be? Do you even realize that although speaking about it may not "solve" anything just talking about it amongst my peers allows me to continue to love white people. If I was to keep my experiences bottled up inside of me
( like you have suggested, only you sugarcoated it)
I would have been a bitter, evil, hateful person towards white people who would give their life for me.People who don't deserve my ill feelings. And I'll be damned if I take your advice and "move on", to do so would be dismissing the pain that my sistuhs put their are experiencing. This is bigger than you and I Alexxa, right now I'm speaking on behalf of the voiceless. I'm speaking on behalf of those who have died for my freedom, white and black. I will not ignore color related issues and put my ancestors to shame. I'm speaking out on behalf of that beautiful damaged woman who doesn't feel appreciated. I'm speaking out on behalf of the leaders both black and white that fought their asses off to get me this far.
I don't ever want to toss aside others feelings and experiences. Without certain white people freedom would never have exsisted. I acknowledge that, therefore I'm determined to love withou bias. So why is it wrong for me to hold out hope that one day maybe others will join in.
Other people may rant in this forum to relieve stress, so why is it so hard for you to understand that I need to rant over issues of color!!!

Color related issues shouldn't be tapped danced around, especially by the folk experiencing it. Sure, I ignore racisit comments, theirs a time and place for everything. But if I kept my issues inside, if we all do, it breeds contempt. I love ya'll, I don't want to pass a white person on the street and not be able to relate, What about you? You're really acting as though my statements are irrational, if so I beg for anyone who I may have offended forgiveness. But while you continue to leave in your perfect world, I'll be still searching for a club with the first words out of my mouth being " Do they hire black girls". Much peace to you babydoll, you're not a lost cause. I have faith that just being able to discuss amognst us may bring you closer to the truth.
In the meantime, Relate, Relax, Release. Peace
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