I really want to smack people who say that dancing is just "partying all day" or "the easiest job in the world."
Mentally I've really been beat. Getting dumped for being a stripper, having an ex threaten to contact my entire family regarding that, as well as adjusting to living by yourself and working five days a week........
I've been drinking all together way way way way WAY too much. Like every day all day. I'm to the point where looking at custies walking in the door makes me like "oh god it's gonna suck giving him a dance I just know it." Men really disgust me now. I mean bad. To the point where I have to be half tanked to give a good dance. I'm dating a really nice good looking guy, and he's totally cool with everything. I just think I need to cut out the drinking, but the problem is, I LOVE drinking. I feel amazing when I drink, and have fun doing it.
On the other hand, there would be no way in hell I would be where I am now without dancing. Likely I'd be living with my parents. I wouldn't have the shit I do or the independence. And I've gotten in great shape (yay for pole tricks). I've learned how to relate to everybody, developing amazing people skills. I've got a confidence i've never had before, and I've learned to see right thru the assholes/liars/losers real quick. It takes a lot to hurt me now, but at a huge expense....
I think I need a vacation. I really don't mind my job, I just really mind the pervos and having to talk and talk and talk and talk ALL day. Yeah, and it's nearly impossible to find a good guy.
Sorry about the ranting. Im wondering if any of you have experienced this?



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