I'm obsessed with my body. I hate it so much (that would be both my body, and my obsession over my body hate, respectively).
Right now? I need to stop counting calories and runniing my brains out and do my ESSAY RESEARCH. Jeebus. It's like the more stress i'm under, the more this "hate, fat, hate, ugly ugly, fat, hate" stuff circles around in my head. And it's the least conducive thing to productivity, really.
I think I was better when I was on wellbutrin. Are meds like that good for silly thought/ self-hate-atitis?
I tried seeing a dr...It didn't work out, but I know with that one should look for another doctor...But having someone tell me what I'm doing and why it's wrong doesn't help. I was probably too impatient.
Has anyone ever gone to an OA meeting? i've wondered...they say it's good for people who have food issues. I'm thinking that, or look for another doctor....
And how do you find a good shrink anyway? I'm too embarrassed to ask my regular doc to refer me.
But I don't have time for any of that right now anyway! School, work, horse (with a persistent, pricey leg problem)! It's all kinda going to shit right now, and I'm freaking with stress, and it makes me feel even worse in this weird way...like I should be too busy to think about this bullshit, but it's more present than ever.
I ate less than 1000 calories for the last three days, and I gained 0.2 of a pound. And it WORRIES me...CONSUMES me. Fuck, man.



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). But I don't know what you can do about it.


If you feel like you did better and let go of the CD I would go back on it. 
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