I try to stay positive and confident about my body. i make no secret of the fact that i'm bigger then your average stripper, and sometimes i feel great and confident and "curvy".
but recently all i do is compare. I compare myself to all the girls in the club which is bad enough. but now i have started surfing other clubs websites and comparing myself to the girls there. When i see a bigger dancer than me i feel great, feeling like if they can do it i can do it. but sometimes i can go for ages looking at all the tiny toned girls and feel terrible about myself.
Of course the answer is to lose some weight, which i have done, but i seem to have hit a plateau. And it's not coming off as fast as i would like it to.
Also being taller seems to make it worse, i look at some pics a friend took of me on a night out and im towering above them all, and my boobs like huge (even though they are only a D cup) and i just generally look WIDER than everyone else. My hips are very wide, even when i was anorexic i'd say they were 2 inches smaller than they are now, i cant change my bone structure. but it gets me down.
I have spoken to a psychologist for months, but i never got very far.
how can i build up my self esteem and accept myself for what i am?



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