^Ooooooooo ur post number 5000!




















I've been mysteriously losing weight, so I'm trying to eat ANYTHING that can keep my weight above hospitalization-level. McDonald's usually does the trick!
I know... I'm kinda scared...hmm.. mine worked. but you know when one thing starts to go wrong, others are soon to follow.![]()
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What did your medical exam turn up? Nothing? Maybe it's time for a 2nd opinion. You don't have that much of that "weight" thing to begin with, LJ.
Everything from the blood work came back normal, including my cholesterol. Strange since for the last 26+ years, I've had high cholesterol (highest was almsot 300, lowest was 170 when I was a vegan). The nurse told me the reading was 149 this time. WTF?! Thyroid checked out, so did all the rest of the hormones they checked. So basically, it's totally normal for me to be constantly tired, eat like a pig (3000 calories/day), and continue to lose weight.![]()
I wish I had your problems, Jade.





me too. i had to settle for a mini bagel with peanut butter and im still hungry.





Must get off SW and do chores! This is getting bad. I want to do nothing but read and read and read more of this place. Someone shake me.
you live like an ivy vine
you can only survive by clinging onto trees
that's your flaw
put down some roots so you can stand on your own
-Kenpachi








I should be thankful work is going well. I feel appreciated, even though I work like a dog. I am doing well, I even made employee of the month, and have been told to find a position upward and take it.
So now I'm scared.... so many years of being downtrodden, and kicked, I can only hope I keep doing what I am doing, and improving. I'm nervous, happy, excited.... I just don't know what to say or do. I'm so worried. I'm just not used to any kind of success. I hope I can keep it up. I know I've worked hard to get here, and I still have miles to go... I just hope I can do it.
At least the weekend is almost here, my son is in bed early, and I'm probablly going their soon myself.
Oh and can someone tell the tech support boy he is in for an ass kicking.... Think of the trolls we often get here on SW, and having to work with one... so young, and does not know when to shut his trap. I'd love to put him in some of my hell hole jobs for a while, he could use the toughning.
I've come a long way since I believed in anything, and I've come half way around the world.
Where you come from is gone.
Where you thought you were going to was never there,
and where you are, ain't no good unless you can get away from it.
-Quote from a mix of Ministry's "Jesus Built My Hot Rod"
Help this cat on his quest for World Domination!
Key West tommorow if everything works out! woo hoo





well boo. i guess that takes the fun out of being able to eat whatever you want.
i keep reading that as kanye hahaha.
i wish i wasnt so tired all the time. i know its because even though i might be in bed for long enough, i dont get good sleep. i get a few hours together, then after that i wake up at *least* every hour. its so tempting to take pain pills to knock myself out but i know how bad that is.
^ im the same way. Part of it is my laptop...its kinda hard to stay offline/or off the phone...when i FINALLY force myself to SLEEP i cant get anything off my mind or i cant get comfy, etc. so i stay up in bed all night tossing and turning and then wake up feeling like shit.
GOD DAMMIT I hated today. Work was DEAD except fot this big birthday party group who came in a limo, bought bottles..and spent SHIT on the girls. One of the chicks stepped on my foot in the bathroom and her damn stilletto heel went RIGHT into my toe...I dont think it's broken but its bruised and swollen. SHe apologised..then walked out while I was grabbing tissue to stop the BLEEDING. You'd think you'd throw a girl $100 or so if you fucked up her damn foot..but no.
And the new girls are PISSING ME OFF. One gave a cpl TABLE dances($10) ...where she was fully naked, full on grinding,..rubbing her crotch on the guy ON THE FLOOR. And management did nothing. Management also did nothing (even though I complained) about the party TAKING PICTURES.
Management is usually on the ball here so this REALLY got to me.
So I got to go home with shit for money and a busted toe.
Great.





world trade center is on showtime. ive never seen it so i watched a little bit.. now of course i want to watch the whole thing but the 15 or so minutes ive watched are screwing me up more than the entire united 93 movie. this is SURE gonna help me sleep tonight![]()





If you think that nobody cares if you're alive, try missing a couple of car payments.
And speaking of car payments, mine is due tomorrow, and all my worldly wealth at the moment amounts to nine dollars. So here I go to try again... another night, another club, but hopefully not another rejection. May I make a million trillion dollars... or at least enough for my car payment. Fingers tightly crossed.
*deep breath*
I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. Really, just gotta keep telling myself I can...
So here I go. Yeah. Just got to get off the computer and walk out the door. Any minute now.
United 93....is that the movie that starts with everyone on the plane?
My boyfriend rented it, I had to leave the room and put on headphones when I started to hear people screaming. I have witnessed a plane crash before, all 127 people on board killed. I didn't need to watch it on tv.
If felt like....OMG, I am watching these people's last moment of life. This is so wrong.
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