Its been occurring more and more frequently. Early, in the first phases of sleep, I am overcome by fear, horrible, paralyzing, debilitating fear.
I am sure there is someone in my home, in my room, standing over me, about to rape, torture, and kill me.
I try to reach over to my nightstand to get my stungun, but I can't move. I have to hide under my sheets. And I'm soaked with sweat, but if I get out from under the sheets and expose a body part, I'm toast.
My therapist says its likely damage caused from substance abused withdrawals, aka delusional paranoia. So ladies, drugs are bad, m'kay. Thing is, I've had these for years, even before all of the abuse.
I'm scared to go to bed and its too late for me to take anything to help me sleep. Pills make me super groggy. I have been in a horrid mood all day due to having it last night, and have had to load up on caffeine and naps. Now I can't sleep!
Anyone else have these? What can I do, besides take pills? Tomorrow night I will try and remember to take melatonin and Valerian Root early....![]()




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