I was a little leery of posting this, but fuck it, my first rant will be this.
I'm frustrated. I need a SW vacay. I love you girls, but in my second home I feel essentially unwelcome and very little support. I figured that we as dancers, fucking dancers, would have more compassion for others. That we would fully understand how it feels to be laughed at, humiliated and picked apart. Every dancer has had a shitty day, a day where the men tore their ass apart, or the tips suggested they weren't worth shit. We know better than to read into comments made at work, we know better than to take them to heart, but when you're having a bad day where do you go to vent and get support, Stripperweb baby!
Now, with all that said I'm frustrated that the overwhelming amount of support hasn't been extended to some members going through a tough few weeks. I'm referring to the debates on here concerning Imus. Where are all the damn virtual hugs and kisses now. Is this "bad week" not bad for me just because Imus didn't directly say it to me? Let me tell you how sucky it's been. At my civilian job, we have 50inch T.V monitors that are always turned on CNN, or some other newscast, it is getting stupid awkard when customers walk up to me
( I stand in front of the monitor) Customers Look up at the current new info concerning Imus, blush, stammer, speak, repeat. All day, people are uncomfortable and don't know what to say to me. I'm A FUCKIN HUMAN BEING WITH A DEEP TAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BTW, I live in the Nations Capital, so that's probably why people are acting a lil funny. But anywhoo, I had a old white man ask me how I felt about Imus, I just re-directed the convo b/c I'm sick of the reaction's already. I'm frustrated that my second home, doesn't quite feel like home anymore. I mean we are DANCERS, we put up with rude comments all the time, but can't u relate to hearing someone else talk about a rude comment that actually penetrated? Why is this situation different? The comment doesn't hurt as much as the backlash surrounding it does. One dude actually yelled out the window "Nigger" last night while I was waiting for the fuckin lightWhat the hell dude........ I had to check my palm pilot,lol, I got nervous and figured my bus took me back to the 50's.
I feel better now, I just needed to say this aloud. I regard ALL of ya'll as part of my community. I think of some of ya'll on my way to work. Hell, I had a couple of u on my prayer listI mean, why do people clam up and objectify hurtful things said to others. No one tells a abused woman to shut up, hurry up, and heal. No one forces a addict through recovery at lightening fast speed and tells them to hurry up, quickly, quickly, get over it.
So why put a bandaid on a glock nine bullet wound? (yeah yeah yeah, my daddy took me to shooting ranges) Why tell others or subtly suggest that their pain is "mocked" . Hell, you ladies know the black women on here, and you should know us as well enough to give US the benefit of the doubt that WE aren't mocking outrage.
Okay, I really feel better now. I'm sorry ya'll, I really needed to rant. I wish this crap never happened. I'm so irritated, why is skin color, fuckin skin color such a complex issue.. I know it's not that simple, but sheesh.... Chivalry is dead, human compassion just jumped ship. Enough of my rant, where are all the hugs and shit when your own homegirls need them?



What the hell dude........ I had to check my palm pilot,lol, I got nervous and figured my bus took me back to the 50's.
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