I sent this to my closest friends, then decided to see the opinions of people who don't love me:p
Alright, well, I need some advice!!
It's like, I always seem to have this pretty great guy, but for whatever reasons, I'm just not entirely happy and decide to bail.
At first I thought my reasonings were getting progressively better, but now I'm starting to think that I'm losing my mind.
I need your honest advice about what you think!
I've been dating and dumping since I was in high school, but I thought I would grow out of this.
Let me start with Tate. I left him (made him move out) in 03 because he was getting more jealous everyday and throwin in a little bit of violence towards inanimate objects. Damn, I loved him, but noone is gonna tell me what to do and I was afraid he might start hitting me instead of the wall.
Next was Hunter, I left him in GA (we never lived together) because he had the most annoying habits that i just couldn't live with. He is married with a kid now and still not over me. We only dated for 6 months. Basically, he annoyed me with farts, fart jokes, ignorance, clinginess, and he spent $3000 on me a diamond ring when I was about to be homeless. Um, could've used $1000 of that to secure an apartment since my roomie was up and moving to TX.
Next was Tony in MS. I moved in with him initially because my current roommate situation sucked and he wanted me out of there. This man was 36, ignorant in many ways, and racist. Everyday I got more and more annoyed and also wanted my own place.
I left him because some stranger told me his friend would rent me a mobile home for $400...this turned out to be false and stranger's friend offered me to stay with him and his mom.
This leads us to Scott. I fell hard for him because he put so much effort into making me want him. Once I wanted him, he stopped. He also stopped working full time (if he ever really did) and had absolutely no aspirations to move out of his momma's house. I broke up with him once because of it, but us getting back together changed nothing, so I left again. Might I add that the girl he dated after me broke up with him for the same reasons. WE are now good friends...she found me on myspace:p
Then I roommate with a woman...for once! This didn't pan out much better because I felt uncomfortable leaving the confines of my room and got very claustrophobic.
I meet Dustin a few months later and convince him that we should get a place together. Everything is fine except that this guy never has anything to say and goes along with whatever I want. Plus, he's been in the military for 5+ years and hasn't a dime in his savings account. I sprang for the move money. We break up because of his never having a thing to say, then get back together and have to move again. He's broke as usual, and I have to come up with 75% of the move money. I finally quit my job at the club and end up with a job where I never have to have a conversation. THis leads me to realize that Dustin and I have rarely had a conversation in almost 2 yrs of dating. I give him 2 months worth of hints, even tell him I'm leaving, but no change. Of course, I leave!
Where do I move to this time? You probably guessed... back into a roommate situation with a man! Geez! wtf is my problem? Basically, it's that I can't afford my own place at that particular time and decide it's better than a motel.
Anyways, I start a relationship with my new roommate. He agrees that he pushed me into it, but he's such a great guy that I don't really mind.
This is where I am at now.......I am totally annoyed with some things he does and those few things have pushed me into wanting my own place again!
This man is 39 yrs old and is enthralled by fart jokes, hates fat people, and can't help throwing in a sexual innuendo even when one isn't at all warranted!
This is a very intelligent person, I might add!
Let me tell you what is driving me insane about him and his good points.
One thing is that he is 39 and seems to be having a mid life crisis. He is not at all happy with turning 40 or "being old" even though he still looks very young. It's not easy to choose dating someone 13 yrs older than you, so when I chose this...that's what I wanted...someone 13 yrs older than me who acts their age!!
He cannot resist talking shit about fat people. He will laugh, point, or make derogatory comments ALWAYS. I can't f'ing stand it!
He doesn't fart around me (and farting doesn't bother me AT ALL) but he is always joking about fart and poo. It's downright annoying to no end!
Also, the sexual innuendos are driving me bonkers. I love mixed nuts, so there is always a can in the house. I cannot say "I love nuts" without a comment. It's funny at first, but after 4 months...enough already! It's like everytime he makes a childish remark, a part of me that cares about him...dies:p
Last night, I gave him a kiss but accidentally sucked my own lip and it tickled. So I ask, "have you ever done that...sucked on your own lip and it tickled?" His reply, "No, I've never sucked, I've only been sucked". Dude, I can't take it anymore.
I think I want a penis free life! I really, really do. Except for the occasional drunk booty call...I just want it to be me, my girls, my dog, and my vibrator!
His good points...He won't let me pay for anything, including rent. We have long conversations about anything and everything. He works hard , has his own home, two vehicles, and a sweet bike. He truly is a sweet guy, but he has such negativity about life sometimes. He claims to not care about sex which is good for me because I HATE feeling obligated, but he is always trying to get some BUT by means of lots of foreplay:p
And I am touchy about the BJ subject because honestly, I locked up my jaw (for months) when I was 16 after giving my first one, and now I make sure BJ's are something I rarely do. Also, I won't give one unless I am a) really horny (rare) b) love and trust the guy c) I'm feeling the love and trust and he hasn't annoyed me in some way hours earlier!
I forgot to add that after a few months together, I started noticing that he has a terrible habit of "picking" on me. I was raised with a mom that quite literally called me stupid or idiot to make herself feel better, so even if someone is joking about me being stupid/idiot, I take terrible offense. I've almost broken this habit of his with me, but not entirely.
So, my friend....do I have serious issues or am I right to feel that once again, I am with the wrong one? Or is my problem a variation of both? and do you think I will ever find a man that I can tolerate longer than 3 mo. to a year?
I honestly feel like I would be happier in my own place, though I will hate having to struggle to pay bills. And I also know that no matter what kind of crappy day or loneliness I am having, my dog will make things all better because she loves me no matter what and has an endless supply of dumb and happy for me to laugh at and enjoy.
It doesn't really scare me to be single for another five years or so, but eventually I do want a family. I just want to make sure I have my own career and have seen many parts of the world beforehand.
Thanks for listening!!



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I can soooo relate.
Most of the situations could have been avoided all together by not dating them at all and you did the right thing about dumping the crappy ones. 

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